Hello strangers :) Sorry that I have been missing in action lately!
Let's start with the crappy stuff. I haven't really lost much more weight, considering I'm supposed to be on VLCD this last week, I have been having a shitty time of eating. Why do people feel they have to be food pushers? I ended up having pizza (yes, PIZZA!) at work one night last week. I knew I shouldn't, didn't really want to, but did anyway to keep up appearances. Argh! Some people have a hard time taking "no thanks" for an answer. One piece won't hurt (um, yes, it kinda will. Especially when it leads to more pieces). We also took an impromptu road trip to visit one of my friends for her birthday, and that was really hard to eat very well as I had little to no choice over the meals. I tried to avoid any carbs, but in general my calories would have been more than I should have been having while on VLCD.
Then there is the self-sabotage. I am working really hard to get away from my all or nothing thinking, but it crept up on me when we got back from our roadtrip. I had some really nice chocolate stashed away in the fridge, and my plan was to make it last until the end of the year. Hmm. Well, there is still some left, but I made a fairly hefty dent in the stash on Sunday night. After I had one piece, the "I've already ruined my diet, might as well enjoy it" thoughts kicked in.
So where am I? 11 days out from surgery, and currently weighing in at 87.6kg (193.1 lb). Soooo not where I wanted to be. They don't tell you that VLCD's are actually harder the second time around! Last year, leading up to the wedding, I was a model student. 2 cups of vegies and 3 meal replacements. Poster child, lost 16kg all up on the opti (over about 3 months). Here's hoping that if I am extra good for this last 11 days I can shave another couple of kgs off that for my pre-surgery weigh in at the surgeons.
Many apologies for being absent from commenting, I've only really been reading blogs in reader on my phone, which makes it a bit hard to comment. I promise when I'm off work for two weeks I will plant myself in front of my PC and comment on everyone's blogs :o)
Best go have a coffee, off to work soon. Yay night shift! (Not).
Luv and hugs to all xo
Good to hear from you! We all have stumbles but catching yourself is better then giving up!
ReplyDeleteMost important thing is to just get right back on track. No beating yourself up, no giving up. It's okay. Trust me we've all been there! (me especially this week)
ReplyDeleteIt's so hard to stick to it pre-surgery. You're doing fine. Just dust yourself off and get right back to it.
ReplyDeleteOops sorry! VLCD is very low calorie diet, the generic term for optifast/optislim or whatever you guys have in the states.
ReplyDeleteHaha, I was going to ask the same thing! I couldn't figure out what VLCD meant. You will do great! Just keep focused on all the reasons you want to lose weight.
ReplyDeleteSpeaking as one who is trying to struggle out of a "sabbatical", if you have chocolate in your fridge and you make it last longer than 5 minutes then you have iron willpower...
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Caroline
I battle the all or nothing mindset too! But it helps when I think about calories in vs calories out. It really does matter if I stop now vs eating all I want since I made one unwise food choice.
ReplyDeleteAnd don't beat yourself up. You'll have surgery and some of these battles will be eased a bit. :)