Accountability

Ok readers. I promised I would be back after I weighed in so you could provide me with some accountability (ie, if I tell you how much I weigh, I will be less likely to consume my body weight in junk tomorrow). Ideally, I should have done this yesterday and then I might have avoided the crap nutritional choices that I made today. 

Just as a side note, I really debated with myself about whether I would do this. One of the judgements opinions I have faced when discussing my weight with people before is that I get "you're not that fat", or "not everyone can be thin" (fyi the person who said that nearly wore the salad I was eating at the time). I know that I am more overweight than some who have had surgery, and less than others, but to me it is a personal thing. I made this decision because I am exhausted, I am tired of struggling to keep a lid on my weight. I need the help that the lapband is offering. It is about me and my weight, and implies no judgement of anyone else. Does that make any sense or am I just rambling again? 

Phew, now that is out of the way. So here it is. I weighed in yesterday morning at 87.1kg, which is about 192 pounds for those playing along on the other side of the globe. Now, I am only 5 feet (and half an inch) tall, so my BMI is currently 36.7. Obese, or morbidly obese depending on the chart you are looking at. The "normal" weight for my height (to squeeze into a BMI of 25) is 59kg (130 pounds) so I am officially 28.1kg away from being in the normal BMI range.  

I have never weighed 59kgs. Well, that was a stupid statement. Obviously I passed it on the way up to 96kg/212lb (the heaviest I have been measured, who knows if it was more - I was too scared to get on the scales!). In the past 18 months I have worked my way down to 77kg/170lb (my wedding day) and then gained 10kg back again before I made the decision to get a band. I cannot even imagine being anywhere near something that starts with a five!!! 

So that, friends, is my ultimate goal - 59kg. Obviously that won't happen overnight, so my first mini-goal is to get down to 85. I promised myself a Full Blog Makeover from Jenny when I get to my first goal, so I don't want it to be too far away. I've already started with a new handwriting font! 

Before I go (and congrats to anyone who is still reading this novel!), a quick shoutout to Sam who is being banded today!! I'm so jealous that her day has come along so soon, but I know mine will be here eventually. 

Enough for now! Goodnight internet!